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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

大男人·小女孩

不是我的错我们都听过
完美的时候要更多
吵架时又说的太多

有时候的我真想和你一样沉默
不想当那罗罗嗦嗦
水也灭不掉的火

也许大男人真的很难忍(没那么男人)
少了点风度还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一点说

有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的已都变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 11:05 am.

don't break my heart slow

I like the way you wanted me,
Every night for so long baby,
And I like the way you needed me,
Every time things got rocky.

I was believing in you,
Was I mistaken, do you say...do you say what you mean,
I want our love to last forever.

But I'd rather you be mean,
Then love and lie,
I'd rather hear the truth,
And have to say goodbye,
I'd rather take a blow,
At least then I would know,
But baby, don't you break my heart slow.

Nooooo
I like the way you'd hold me,
Every night, for so long baby,
I like the way you'd say my name,
In the middle of the night,
While you are sleeping.

I was believing in you,
Was I mistaken, do you mean...do you mean what you say,
When you say our love could last forever.

Well I'd rather you be mean,
Then love and lie,
I'd rather hear the truth,
And have to say goodbye,
I'd rather take a blow,
At least then I would know,
But baby, don't you break my heart slow.

Nooo
You'd run around,
And lead me on forever,
While I'd wait at home,
Still thinking we're together,
I wanted our love to last forever.

I was believing in you....

I'd rather you be mean,
Then love and lie,
I'd rather hear the truth,
And have to say goodbye,
I'd rather take a blow,
At least then I would know,
But baby, don't you break my heart slow.

Nooooo
Don't love and lie,
I'd rather hear the truth,
And have to say goodbye.
I'd rather take a blow,
At least then I would know.
But, baby dont you break my heart slow.
Baby dont you break my heart ................slow

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 11:01 am.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

no 3rd party, only willing party

heh... jus talked to a snr over msn and spoke on the 3rd party part.. i would jus like to declare... there is no 3rd party in any relationship! jus a willing party!

if the cause of any breakup is due to a "3rd party", the couple would have broken up anyway even without one.. if there wasnt a "3rd party" they mite have broken up over... hmm... money problems? over... who was late for a date? i duno... in order for a "3rd party" to actually strike, the r/s mus have got cracks for the "3rd party" to wriggle in....

so, boys and girls...
there is NO 3RD PARTY, ONLY WILLING PARTY!
hope u guys are enlightened

你的话我晓得
无论你说得多么温和
某一些难解的隔阂
把爱伤害了那多不值得

没什么好怪的
我已经乏力继续拉扯
没有谁非爱谁不可
就算变心了也非罪不可赦

她只是最最无辜的第三者
就算她消失此刻
告诉我能得回什么呢
责怪她又凭什么呢

她只是无意闯入的第三者
我们之间的困难
在她出现之前就有了
虽然我愤怒但是我明白的
把过错让她去背着
那是不对的

Hey女孩你听着
所有爱情都有竞争者
我不妒忌你们快乐
虽然我人生因此有曲折

他还是不错的
我们的选择不是巧合
你用青春大胆假设
我去将失去活成一种获得

Hey女孩你听着
所有爱情都有竞争者
我不妒忌你们快乐
虽然我人生因此有曲折

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 1:16 am.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

i want a pistachio

so anyway, i wonder what is it like to start work? hmmm... will i be really busy and have no time to catch my breath?

so the boyfren spoken to me once in eh... 5days.. personally i dun like it at all but his side of story is he is really REALLY busy. i asked nonchalantly: hmm.. so when u tink u will be busy till? him: till around xmas... heh.. from now busy till xmas. talk once a week (if im lucky, i tink). no no.. i meant, contact once a week.. not like talk talk wor... the once a week is eh... phonecall abit + msn. the rest of the time, nope. no msn. no sms. no phonecalls. i wonder if how long will it take for him to realise if i were to suddenly like. disappear now. im guessing... hmm 2weeks, maybe? i duno... am i asking too much. but ive also been very VERY busy before. i still had time to scratch my back so i find it very hard to see y u didnt have time or energy to pretend to be concern for ur gf, assuming u still remember u have got one. huh.. 10mins a day better than none. no no.. im begging 5mins. 5 mins mite make me very happy already. dun let me noe u have been doing origami or smt like tat. or have time to go out and chill and socialise. i shall be very disappointed. of cos u need to have ur life... but im hoping im slightly abit more impt than ur origami and new frens and wats not. considering the fact we communicate like, once in a blue BLUE MOON nowadays... the more time goes by, the more i wonder; can two people still be together if they only have love and dun seem to have anyting else.

and oh! i purposely went to help u buy ur colleague's fren's ROM or smt present. it was drizzling and pretty cold. i was miserable and alone. jus immediately buying tat, i felt... i duno.. come to tink of it. i dun even noe ur colleague. and u dun even noe ur colleague's fren! so wat if the willowtree figurine is nice? suddenly i feel very selfish but im like... i duno... u help ur colleague tink of wat present to give her fren... (ok. not tink tink. but concerned enough. i tot u very busy?) tats like... more attentive and caring than towards me la! i so feel so loved. u didnt force me to buy. u even mentioned smt like, if cannot post back or smt, nevermind.. but i jus felt that u wanted me to get it for her.. come on... save some tender loving care for me too. tis is getting ridiculous already. but thank god, im slowly but surely adjusting to it already, i tink...
if u didnt want me to be too needy etc, dun worry, u r slowly training me to be a stronger person... but sometimes i tink... logically speaking.. if i become a stronger person i mite not need u anymore... cos come to tink of it... hmm.. can i put it tis way? so a person is not so healthy, hence must take vitamins... u want the person to be healthy, so thank god, the person really became healthy... but then he wont need to take the vitamins anymore.. so wat? say goodbye to the vitamins, tats wat!

i had a heart-to-heart session with one of my fr so many tings en... he was quite a good listener, and surprisingly, hmm.. how to put it... (althou it was over msn...) i felt he cared and didnt give absolute advice, thou he mentioned some tings which i tot made sense... i always feel im taking advantage of the bf... taking him for granted. cos he do alot of tings for me physically and materially... but he dun ever give me the feeling tat he NEEDS me, not in a long while... i have always felt tat if i were to disappear from his life, he wont shed, erm. 2 tears. he mite prolly be abit upset at all the investments and time wasted on me. ok. maybe he wont tink tat way.. but some how, jus somehow, i dun feel tat im very important to him... i cant place wat i feel.. its jus... a feeling. the only time i felt he needed me was.. eh.. heh when he was in J2. and he was freaking stressed over his A level art proj. he confided in me tat one time. he hardly tells me tings, come to tink of it.. or the few personal tings he tells, it mostly began with... im not supposed to tell u... or... u mus pretend u duno... u treat me like an outsider sometimes... u may tink u r protecting me cos, me being sad with u dun solve anyting.. and u dun want me to be sad... but i want to feel INVOLVED... see? so anyway, come to tink of it... wat my snr said made sense.. he drew for me... and made origami for me... im thankful and very touched.. but so wat? almost everyone in the world had an origami of his, or some very sweet cute card he drew.... i noe its a small ting... but eh... it matters... (to be fair, i also received some tings other ppl didnt have. eh.. like a camera - i loved it, thanks! or eh... the webcam cos i was bugging him some time cos i cant see him. then he went to buy the webcam.. so im touched. but its also ok only.. hehe.. cos he bought but he didnt use it anyway... he treats me food (but i guess he will do tat to any girl he brings out for meals. on a sidenote: having a gentlemanly boyfren is also not a good ting.. cos he is spreading and sharing all his love... i dun like.. i like my bf to be nice and sweet to me ONLY! thou he can be humane to the rest of the world. hehe...) eh... ive received many material tings i guess... but wat i like most is his handmade presents... when i started dating him.. i tried to make tings for him too.. but sadly, i failed miserably... in the end i stopped embarassing myself... heh.. its crazy.. i mutilated alot of tings and still gave him... feeling very impressed with myself... now tinking back.. its so ugly how did i find the guts to give it out?! heh... and another impt factor is i didnt feel wat i made or got for him is appreciated anyway... so i bought for him wat.. clothes? his brother and sister take and wear.. waterbottles? his dad and sister took. perfume? now his brother smells like him sometimes... zzzzzz....... im, i duno.. kind of weird maybe? but i got abit OCD. i like cleanliness... like... hmmm.. emotionally anyway.. heh. like i cant help it but make it a very clear distinction tat i do not wear any other guy's clothes or shirt other than my bf's (siblings and family not included), i do not like to sit next to some other guy if my bf is ard. i do not give guys any special ting i made. i always try to make my guy more special than the other fren i see everyday...) so anyway... of all the many many tings he gave me... hmm... i treasure the book of bears he drew for me most.. cos i tink/hope its still unique to me... i tink/hope im the only living person to have get someting like tat from him.. and i noe when he drew tat and gave it to me... he was loving me very much and i felt treasured and someone special... tat person, he didnt change yet.. tats the guy who told me: i brought u along so u wont misunderstand, and so i wont "lead her on". so the story was.. he was VERY convinced tat fren A (girl, of cos) liked him (thou i always laugh at him and he didnt exactly confirm with the girl outright anyway). so frenA asked him out to watch tis movie which he also wanted to watch.. so in the end, he asked me too... so its me. frenA and him... tat was sweet.. i tink i remembered him saying he brought me along to show frenA he has got a gf and so i wont misunderstand... where is the person who decided wat his gf tot (me, of cos) was more important than wat any other girl tinks? where is the person who placed me before any random fren?! sometimes i tink i do not trust u. and i feel very insecure... my brother ever asked me smt like tat before... like tis girl "dumped" him (were they even together in the 1st place?! hurhur!!! haha!) so anyway, the girl told him she didnt feel special.. cos he send the girlfren home.. true.. but he also send every other girl home. he pays for her movie tix.. so wat? he pays for everyother girl's movie tix. i asked my brother, so did u guys, hmm.. hold hands? him: yep. me: but she still dumped u? him: yah.. wat i told my brother is.... when the girl tells u she dun feel secure with u, u mus always ask urself, if she is ur gf, it means she is special... special means doing tings for her and her only... if she dun feel secure, u mus tink back and see wat havnt u done enough to make her want to stay with u? hehe... i can advise ppl. but when it comes to me... i cant apply it... if i were any smarter, or sassier.. or even... more true to myself i would have said, thanks for all these yrs... goodbye and i wish u love... i mean... do i want to be married with a guy who makes me tink left right center every day when he dun call me? or talk to me? very mentally draining u noe? do i want to be be suspicious and paranoid all my life, jus cos my partner is talking to some other girl? i do not... dear diary. and dear god. please let tings turn for the better everyday, esp when i go back sg for good. i want to have a very nice love story tat goes on and on.. till i die or smt... heh... but we shall see... i noe the world dun revolve ard me... i noe u dun revolve ard me.. but hey fren, look over more often cos im supposedly ur girlfren, the one who u get to kiss and hug and hold hands.

sigh.. my blog was a happy collection of memories... since when its all about the bf and noting else? i noe.. sad life...

I WANT A PISTACHIO!!!

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 4:07 am.

boys and girls... lesson for today is...

never make someone a priority when that person only make u an option.

listen to me; and listen well. will save u lots of heartache in the future

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 4:04 am.

Friday, September 05, 2008

why am i letting it affect me so badly?
hang on. do i even noe the cause of my unhappiness?

nope. i dun. shit. i hope tis is not depression or smt...

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 7:44 pm.

九月五日

你偏偏要她长大，独立，不要这样的依赖你。
可是，你有没有想过，那一天她不这样，什么事都对你说，
愿你为她解决，就有可能是那天她再也不需要你了。

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:41 am.

hi stranger. hi fren

its amazing how ppl can never meet each other. but they somehow are jus able to write some tings that jus connects with others. the lyricists. sometimes the songs they write. the content. its amazing how the songs always reflects ur fren's fren's life story. or the love story of the neighbour down ur hall. or the sad life of some cousin. or maybe... ur own. the mass and the lyricists; they have never met, but somehow they are all connected. we are all connected.

sometimes i wonder; the ppl who seems to noe wat we are feeling at the very moment, may not only be our closest ones.. it may be tat lyricists who wrote the song, because his/her fren's fren (or smt) had a similar life story. or the scary ting.. other times, u feel that the only person who seemed to understand u is the lyricist who penned the lyrics of the song.

sometimes, in the dead of the night, i will listen to some songs... and my mind jus cannot make the effort to not tink about some things....

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:34 am.

大男人·小女孩

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:33 am.

不懂

己经好远了
退也有一点累了
我们都不知道路有多远
走到何时才歇一歇
不如就现在吧
让我们都停下
但是在休息后
我们还不知道继续走的理由
雨都停了天都亮了
我们还不懂
这爱情路究竟带我们到什么地方
是要持续仍旧珍惜
还是回到原地
如今此刻的我
的确是有一点疲倦

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:32 am.

孤单北半球

用你的早安陪我吃晚餐
记得把想念存进扑满
我望着满天星在闪
听牛郎对织女说要勇敢
不怕我们在地球的两端
看你的问候骑着魔毯
飞用光速飞到我面前
你让我看到北极星有十字星作伴

少了你的手臂当枕头
我还不习惯
你的望远镜望不到
我北半球的孤单
太平洋的潮水跟着地球来回旋转
我会耐心的等
等你有一天靠岸

少了你的怀抱当暖炉
我还不习惯
e给你照片看不到
我北半球的孤单
世界再大两颗真心就能互相取暖
想念不会偷懒
我的梦通通给你保管

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:29 am.

突然累了

吃饭吃到睡了
我开车开到傻了
我看书看到你了
开始怀疑我怎么了

说话说到吐了
我写歌写到疯了
我爱你爱到盲了
天知道我又怎么了

不舍得舍不得都分手了
舍不得不舍得散了
爱是你的我是我的完了
原来我只是突然累了
原来我不说了
原来我撑着撑到麻了
原来我不爱了

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:27 am.

Monday, September 01, 2008

qoute of the day

The final test of faith is not how much you believe but how much you love.

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 8:42 pm.

1st sep 2008

hi. its me again. im feeling pretty down most days these days. and im not liking it a single bit. its kinda crazy. honours is no joke. it makes people crazy. and it makes the people around the crazy ppl crazy too.

i feel quite... evil i guess.
so last nite my fren asked me if i could help her with her expt. i wasnt willing at all, since it was really early for me and i planned to have a late nite to do my work.
but i agreed in the end.. not without some internal whines with myself.

i guess i just wanted to tell someone. thou i dun tink i REALLY dont want to help. but jus. its jus at that moment, i want to tell someone.

so ahah! i told my bf bout it. i didnt noe wat kind of response i was hoping for when i told him tat. after hearing his response thou, i knew wat kind of response i hoped to hear. i hoped to hear him say: -yes. i understand its tiring. hang in there.- or smt like tat.. he dun really have to understand. but instead wat i got was... sorta like a *snigger-ish laugh. tat laugh hinted that perhaps he tot im really quite childish to be complaining. cos i was saying smt like... i always woke up very early to help her. alot of times already leh... him. -frens do not count the number of times they helped one another. and u like tat already started to whine. next time u go work how? tell ur boss -its too early, can i come in later?- me: (i knew frens do not count the number of times they helped each other and i will prolly have very bad karma tinking tat way. but at the same time, im not sure tats the kind of reply i wanna hear). me:-silence-. me: -u noe, u could have jus said, its ok. hang in there. she is also very nice to you. tis sort of tings-. him:-ok la.. sorry la. etc etc...- i tuned out. cos i noe what he said initially was correct anyway. its jus.. perhaps it would be nice to have someone lie to me and say. yes i understand.

its times like this i felt that there is no point continuing this charade. i mean. i love him. but the love i envisioned wasnt like this. he ever told me. that there was a 3 straight day holiday and everyone is out and ard. he didnt have a date. im not ard and none of his other frens were free. i was apologetic. but there was noting i could do. hello. im also very lonely here without u ok! i noe im here, hence in theory it shd be my fault. but i somehow feel that it cant be my fault entirely. although its not urs too. i wish. if i had a time machine. maybe we shd have jus broken up when i was bout to come here... or maybe. i wished that time, i didnt slip my tongue and made a fool of myself (that's how we got to noe and started talking to each other, isnt it?) i perhaps mite have been happier. or wait. i mite not have been happier. but at least, there is a chance i wont be tis sad. its amazing how i have integrated u into my life. and how big a mistake tat was. thou looking back, there didnt seem like there was anyting i could do to stop it.

how bout that... if there was a rewind button, lets... but no. there were very sweet moments too.
but somehow i cant seem to remember them very clearly. my eyes. they are covered with tears.

i noe tis ting happened a long time ago. i tink i told u bout it before. but perhaps it was in a conversation i didnt have time to organise my tots porperly.

let me tell a story....

once, quite some time ago, u went overseas with a bunch of ppl u have never met. to do ur attachment for sch. and cos u have to eat and live and work with them, getting along with them is very important. suddenly u didnt have time for me. at all. i lost to some stupid idol drama! omg. tinking back. yes. im not pleased. but its ok. im not TAT petty. not yet anyway.
then. some colleague/schmate had birthday. prolly u tot, y waste money on buying material presents when u can make/draw someting better and its free?! hence u drew her a very sweet drawing... i would like to tink, long before, im a very liberal and best girlfen. i didnt noe wat jealousy or paranoia was. i dun tink i told u before, but that drawing u drew for her? it was very nice. but then again. there was a red heart at the bottom of the page. i duno man. but if some guy drew me tat and added a heart, i would tink perhaps he is 1% interested in me? and then, after the attachment, u went on a short holiday ard china. i didnt noe from u 1st hand that ur companions were 2 girls. and i didnt noe that u guys shared a room. well. it really wasnt a big ting, i guess. if u would have told me i would have understood. but i dun remember u saying that. and hence when i knew of it. it was like, i got strucked by lightning. quite a shock. thou it really didnt matter to me. poor students share a room, tat i can accept. even if its with 2 girls. thanks to that reminder call... it seemed to have stirred someting in me. something i tot it didnt exist in me.

but ahah! i was wrong. it was jus dormant. its there. there is actually a suspicious, sneaky, untrusting monster in me. u told me u didnt even remotely like her and she was really not v pretty looking. i saw her pics. she was... well... ok. by right i shd be comforted and the monster shd jus go back and sleep. but somehow. it didnt.

from then on. i was unhappy. and still am unhappy.

and then.. i guess i didnt noe when the exact timeline was. but the monster woke up. and didnt go back to sleep. the tings came in waves. then there is the HER saga. haha.. its so ridiculous i dun even want to talk bout it. ur side of the story is tat tings are NOT POSSIBLE btw u guys... i believe u. i really do. but i jus cant get the monster back to sleep. u see... i have got a pretty darn good imagination. and it didnt help that i was already insecure from the 1st time. and it really really didnt helped that she had to be the 1st person i knew of which u made a rose and drew a card and mailed it to whoever was consolidating the card. and it really didnt helped that she was the 1st person, other than me, whom u have played the piano for and posted on the blog. and it really REALLY didnt help that she is drop dead pretty and cute. with big eyes and small nose etc. y. she looked straight out of some jap manga! and it didnt helped that u were frens with her, meaning she musnt have been a bitch or smt. and then... i was really unhappy bout it. she didnt have to do be extra frenly to u; and u didnt have to be extra nice to her. but her presence alone is a threat. wow. i resorted to suspecting tis and that, left and right. i really dun like the person ive become. i hate myself. and then. i told u bout it. u reassured me. the day before i left for oz, u told me again u cant have liked her. i asked for 10 reasons. u could only very very lamely cough out a few. amongst were reasons like.. she is too smart. etc etc. i told u very softly, i cant remember if u heard it. i told u very softly. i regret asking for 10 reasons and u can stop. cos the truth is u cant tink of 10 reasons. and i dun wan to noe u cant tink of even at least 2 proper ones.

oh. and so many tings! like tat time i went over to ur hall and was mucking ard randomly. perhaps i have abit of 6th sense. i saw tis collection of winnie the pooh short stories. and then. i turned to u and asked. is it her's? u said yup. my heart sank. it doesnt matter wat the truth is. wat matters is wat i tink. isnt it? i put the books back like they were poison. very fast and i stood far away from it. shd i be happy cos u saw no reason to lie when i asked if it were hers? or shd i be sad that it was even with u in the 1st place?

there was once u had a picture of a muffin. the muffin was say... a bite eaten? i didnt noe wat it was at 1st. so i asked. wats tat pic? since it was like brownish looking and quite unfamiliar.
u noe wat u said? u said u were walking along jurong point and u walked past famous amos. u tot the muffins smelt nice so u bought one. i'ld say. u didnt buy it. and u jus cooked up a lie. cos, thou i wont say i noe u very well, the 6 yrs ive been with u, u have never wanted to buy or eat a muffin. and the muffin smelling nice from famous amos, it wasnt anyting new anyway, isnt it? the nice aroma has always been there. and u tell me u walked past it and it smelt nice so u bought?! and u expect me to believe u?! do i really look tat dumb? but then again. u were right. i didnt believe u. but i pretended to anyway. its almost the same. isnt it? i am not that dumb. but i pretend to be. i didnt asked u again bout the origin of the muffin. but i can bet my bottom dollar its from her. and u took that picture to show ur appreciation for her gift to u. i tot tat was quite sweet of u. but i didnt understand y u had to do that. perhaps i am too sensitive? but u have recieved alot of tings. and u do not take a pic and used it as ur msn picture. y is this time so special? is the person who gave it to u special? was the muffin especially nice? did it taste sweet? and soft? thanks to u. i quite dislike muffins now. haha. very childish. bleah.

i told u, maybe not the whole reason y i dislike her. but since considering u r not stupid, i tot the tings i said would have given u a hint already. but hey. u noe wat? assuming u knew i dun "heart" her, u didnt care. of cos u said nice tings and reassured me. but hey fren? actions speak louder than words. then the saga died down. then. i went back for the july break tis yr. u had a grad ball on the week im back. ryan didnt want to go. and u asked me to go. since there was an empty ticket anyway. i didnt want to. i feel abit inferior and i didnt want to see HER, cos im assuming she would be there. well... after much cajoling from u, i gave in, tinking, how bad can a dinner be? i can deal with my inferiority, cant i? then after i have pretty much agreed to go, u dropped the bomb. u kindly told me we will be sitting at the same table as her. once again im in a dilemma. shd i be thankful and tink u r a best bf for warning me b4hand and wanted me to go, which mite translate to u had noting to hide and be sneaky about? or shd i have jus walked away there and then cos, ITS HER AGAIN. and wat the hell are u doing on the same table as her anyway?! its very irrational of me i admit. after all, u guys were frens and classmates. y cannot, rite? and in ur course, seems like u didnt have lots of ppl to hang out with anyway. i cant blame u for sitting at the same table as her. but i did. and i still do. tat dinner. it was the worst dinner i ever attended. the food and the ambience were both wasted on me. fullerton u noe... but i could have been sitting at some void deck coffeeshop and i wont have known the difference. i ignored u pretty much the whole nite. on the way home, i told u once again how i disliked her. u reassured me saying, dun worry. not schooling anymore, wont have much chance to keep in touch. im reassured. but then again. not quite. she is ur fren still, isnt it? then again, so wat if she disappeared from the face of the earth. wont there be her-the-2nd? or her-the-3rd? both of us are still so young. we will get to meet alot alot. many many ppl as we grow. it hit me quite hard that the prob is jus btw u and me. as u said. she mite slowly fade out in ur life. but there will always be other ppl who u will meet, isnt it? i was upset at tis realisation. but then again. i told myself not to tink bout it.

last nite, i didnt want to do my work. so i went onto facebook. heh. i went to my bf's page. and saw this cute flower made from balloons? i duno. maybe i am asking for too much. but i felt abit zzz-ed at not noeing tats wat u r playing with these days. nevermind. i went to have a look, since u posted the pic on ur facebook. heh, guess wat?
she wrote:

Oh cool! You managed to do the flower band. Haha... Did you pop the balloon halfway like the guy in the video did?
u wrote:
No la, just deflate only...

hehe.. guess wat? wat u mean, u managed to do the flower band?! u mean u were tinking of doing it? wat u mean, did u pop the balloon halfway like the guy in the video did? wat video?!
it was so ridiculous. it was even funnier when i felt upset seeing tat. did i really tink u will servere all ties with her?! and then i laughed. tinking so many tings happened to u everyday, at every second. do i expect u to tell me bout it? im crazy to even expect tat! so in the end, i laughed. i laughed at my naiveness at that tot. yes yes. u wont like her and its really bad of me to keep tinking that way. if i could, i also dun wanna be so uptight and sensitive. u can teach me how?

i tot my laughter sounded worse than crying.

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 7:07 pm.

Don't Quit

when things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
when the road you're trudging seems all uphill.
when the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile but you have to sigh.
when care is pressing you down abit,
rest! if you must; but don't you quit.

life is queer with it's twists and turns,
as everyone of us sometimes learns.
and mayne a failure turns about,
when he might have won had he stuck it out.
don't give up, though the pace seems slow;
you might succeed with another blow.

often the goal is nearer than
it seems to a faint and faltering man,
often the struggler has given up,
when he might have captured the victor's cup.
and he learned too late, when the night slipped down,
how close he was to the golden crown.

success is failure turned inside out;
the silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
and you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems so far;
so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit;
it's when things go wrong that you must not quit.

-author unknown-

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 6:52 pm.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

大男人·小女孩

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 11:05 am.

don't break my heart slow

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 11:01 am.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

no 3rd party, only willing party

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 1:16 am.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

i want a pistachio

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 4:07 am.

boys and girls... lesson for today is...

never make someone a priority when that person only make u an option.

listen to me; and listen well. will save u lots of heartache in the future

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 4:04 am.

Friday, September 05, 2008

why am i letting it affect me so badly?
hang on. do i even noe the cause of my unhappiness?

nope. i dun. shit. i hope tis is not depression or smt...

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 7:44 pm.

九月五日

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:41 am.

hi stranger. hi fren

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:34 am.

大男人·小女孩

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:33 am.

不懂

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:32 am.

孤单北半球

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:29 am.

突然累了

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 3:27 am.

Monday, September 01, 2008

qoute of the day

The final test of faith is not how much you believe but how much you love.

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 8:42 pm.

1st sep 2008

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 7:07 pm.

Don't Quit

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 6:52 pm.