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Sunday, July 30, 2006

to my bros.

ive got 2 brothers, younger ones. one is sec4 tis yr, the other is pri6.

i guess being boys, they dun have tis drive towards studies yet.

there were times i jus wanna give up on them. then i watched I NOT STUPID TOO. i cried buckets cos i could see myself in the characters and i see my bros in the boys in the movie.

there is this theme song, rapped by JunYang.

these are the lyrics.
take time to read them. then, perhaps, u would be more forgiving and more understanding.(to read, Rightclick, then Encoding, then Unicode. smt like tat. )

我们肆无忌惮我们成群结党

我们目无尊长对什么事都不满

着我们的成长只会制造麻烦

我们就是一无是处你又能怎样

我们 Don't Give A Damn 那看不起的眼光

我们什么都不是我们什么都不管

我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言

我们之间有道墙

学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想

这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象

只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样

别以为看不起我们就告诉自己比人家强

有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向

又有谁会替我们想想苹果为何变烂

其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞

扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望

泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫

迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办

惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长

然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场

我们一出世就是自己孤军作战

站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊

不要让我们一生绝望

学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想

这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象

只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样

别以为看不起我们就告诉自己比人家强

有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向

又有谁会替我们想想苹果为何变烂

其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞

扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望

泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫

迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办

惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长

然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场

我们一出世就是自己孤军作战站

在十字路口的风雨中呐喊

不要让我们一生绝望

泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫

迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办

惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长

然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场

我们一出世就是自己孤军作战站

在十字路口的风雨中呐喊

不要让我们一生绝望

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 6:27 pm.

It was a pity.

u noe, it suddenly dawned to me last nite, that the human is actually a very complex animal. u would tink u have seen thru him, but actually u have not. even the most transparent person u tink u noe, u don't. ppl, its not like i simplify tings in the past and tink tat everyone is wat they seem. hello, im 21 now, i would have seen my share of ppl. im not as naive or smt. its jus tat last nite, i had a reminder of how ugly or confused the human is.

we are all different, yet we are all same. we may have different skin color, gender, economic status, educational level etc etc, but deep down, we still have 2 eyes, 1 nose, 1 mouth, need food, air and water to survive. so. the bottom line is, if we are all the same, why do we need to make tings difficult for the fellow human being? of cos its self before others, tat much i agree most of the time. but, to offer a smile to someone, it doesnt cost anyting. besides, it takes only 17 muscles to smile. or, if smiling is really not ur ting, doing smt positive is not ur ting, at least dun do anyting negative. pls, do not spread untruths and gossips becos alot of ppl, despite their age, they are really not as mature as they tink they are, or as open-minded as they like to envision themselves.

i admit, im not a saint. but, being a victim of vicious, untrue gossips in the past, i noe how it feels like. so now, i make a concious effort not to lable ppl, or condemn anyone based on wat i hear. as long as u r nice to me, i dun really care wat other ppl say u do to them. unless i experience it personally, i'll still treat u as a fren. if im as unlucky as to get hurt by tat someone, ppl may say, see! i warned u bout him! u didnt listen to me... well, i noe, its always better to learn from someone else's mistake than to commit tat mistake personally. but i oso believe in the human nature, and tat not everyone is evil. i believe in giving the benefit of the doubt. mayb bcos in the past, few ppl ever gave me the benefit of the doubt and i was hurt n upset bout it. so i decided tat not all ppl have to undergo the same tings i did. even if i walk out of all those ordeals a much stronger and mature person, i still tink its not a v good experience and shd be avoided at all costs. i tink, in that sense, im abit more mature than wat others tink i am. sometimes i mite make the mistake of stereotyping ppl too, but i try not to let my judgments be affected.

but how many ppl can actually see the big picture and stop hurting others? the funny ting is, the ones who spread gossips and untruths, they are seldom the victims of the tongue. they probably have lead a sheltered life, as in, they are v seldom victims of malicious gossip and unpopularity etc. sigh.

i wonder, the ppl who spread such gossips, do they actually feel happier? i mean, of cos i partake in such tings sometimes, but i tink the extent of my gossip is not tat great. i mean, i do go ard spreading bad tings about someone! mayb i have ever commented on the on the bad dress sense or smt. but to spread really really malicious tings bout someone, i hope i have not. if i ever had, im sorry. will take note in the future.

u can say im abit disillusioned about the human being again. im abit affected by tat reminder i had last nite. if u guys are worried bout me, thank goodness, nope, im not the victim tis time rd. heng ah. it happened to a fren, and im jus upset tat since we are all bonded by the fact we are ppl in general, and bonded by the fact we are all from the same homeland, is there really a need to make life diff for fellow ppl?

dear all, take time off and reflect. isnt it time we take a step back and look at the big picture and make judgments for ourselves, instead of being influenced by wat others say and let them make decisions for us? we are all very vunerable and we need all the support we can get. we really do not need someone else to shovel more dirt on us when im sure everyone would have our inner demons and circumstances to fight with in the 1st place.

take time off to tink and be kind. at least, do not be mean.

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 1:55 pm.

Friday, July 28, 2006

WATS TAT?!

yesterday, my room heater, the one that is supplied by currie hall, aka the wall heater, aka the one which is near the ceiling (dun they noe hot air rises and cold air sinks?!), aka the heater tat goes off every 40 mins (i timed!), spoilt TWICE.

the heaters were not working on my side in the B300s. i called the RA the 1st time to check wats going on. the RA said all the switches on the main board were down but he pushed it again to make sure. then the heaters were able to work again. then at 11pm, the heaters stopped AGAIN. i called the security and the prob was fixed. its really lousy lor! it goes off every 40mins and now, the main switch had to be faulty. wth.

but anyway, i went city today and got myself a external heater, which does not go off every 40mins, and its placed on the floor! quite pleased with my buy. paid 25bucks for it. but apparently its considered abit ex liao, cos some other frens bought theirs for 18bucks or smt.
watever it is, im jus glad i dun have to shiver anymore. heh. and good ting is i can jus on the heater without the electricity in my rm tripping. yes, cannot use appliances which is more than 1000w apparently, if not the electricity in ur rm will trip. guess they dun wan pay too much for the electricity ba. wich makes economic sense. but we are poor students in a freezing, foreign land.

so giving us lousy/repetitive food and fixed meal times are not enuf.
so charging us the exorbitant AU$263 A WEEK for the dorm fees are not satisfactory.
thanks a bunch.
and we have to take note of so so many restrictions.
and internet expenses are seperate.

ok, nevermind. cool down, girl. at least u've got urself a heater!
*clap clap*
haha
now, pics of the victory against the freezing cold weather!

say hello to Xiao Bai.

by the way, its illegal to have a heater in ur room. so i mus hide the heater b4 the cleanin lady comes.
sianz. like a thief like tat.

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 7:02 pm.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Printer

p/s : i also successfully installed my printer today! i tink

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 12:26 am.

Time Well Spent

haha. everyone. Ginz is Back! back to blogging again i mean.

i spent. ahem. 3 hrs posting my pics on sony image station and then posting them onto my blog. its under LINKS. have a look everyone! dun let my time spent go to waste!

gosh.
therefore, i conclude: sony image station is one of the best ting on earth! besides me being born into the world of cos.

go and have a look and feel free to compliment!

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 12:10 am.

Friday, July 14, 2006

writer's block

i changed from blogging almost everyday in ozland to now, due to limited internet connection, online avg once a week. i dun even noe wat to blog already. its kinda sad, cos i pride myself to be full of rubbish and now, i stare at the screen and im stump for words.

i dun even noe wat to write now.

and im like, bored. there are lots of tings to do everyday, but im not doing anyting anyway. then im complaining im bored. haha. wat an oxymoron.

arghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway, thanks to dear weiliang, he got me tix for the SUPERBAND recording tis sunday! yay!!!
but im playing in the ripcurl beach vball tis sun too. hope it ends early. the tingy starts at 6. i told him i will try not to be late. but they are the last to perform. so even if im a teeny-weeny late... well, weiliang, be a nice person to the end la.. come out and pass me the tix?

anyway, i am really v happy u got the tix for me! thanks alot!

and ya. back to the topic. ive got a writer's block. well, i noe, im hardy considered a writer but its jus tat words are not flowing out from me like it used to. and its a change i do not like. boos.

ppl! comment on wat to write!

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 9:40 pm.

Monday, July 10, 2006

quick post from dad's place

was at xinquan's place last nite watching soccer. France lost. i was upset can! i even bought a Adidas France sleeveless to wear jus for the finals and they had to lose! good fight thou. the italian defence was tough. wah lau! we counted! there was like 9 italians and 4 frenchmen in the italian box la! how to score like tat i ask u! thou the italians were good and well, they won last nite. but i keep tinking the italians are jus well, they keep giving me the idea tat they are playing v "smelly". im an untrained eye when it comes to soccer but i really have the idea. all the time im like, huh, like tat will fall till so pain meh? then im like, wah, they really love to tackle from the back hor? is it even legal!? im sad. sigh.
and boys and girls, u noe wats even sadder?!
results out tml at 7am. so gan jiong. my bio!!!!!! i dun wanna da bao! i dun wanna take the module with WL together! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND VAL, IF U R READING TIS. I SMS U BUT U DIDNT REPLY ME.
DID U CHANGE NUMBER?
SMS ME THEN.
ITS 8144 9685.

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 7:41 pm.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

of soccer, milubing and life

u noe, since now im like crazy over MiLuBing, i shall try to explore the reason why ppl go crazy over such a ting. i am no psychologist nor some learned person. im jus giving my two cents worth.

with the world cup fever (for the world) and the superband (for me n wl and like 6% of sporeans) ard, u have fanatic ppl all ard u. suddenly, almost everyone have got a common topic, be it soccer or superband or the increase in taxi fares. whatever it is, as i look ard, strangers can jus carry a conversation with each other becos "tings" are happening.

im not crazy over soccer. i admit. i watch it for the cute guys. wat else? i dun play or watch soccer enuf to appreciate a good pass and a fantastic pass. but lucky me, i can still sorta differentiate btw a good/fantastic pass from a lousy,sucky pass or shoot. Kaka is cute to me. C.Ronaldo is too. Zidane may be old but hey, i tink he's a legend somehow. when the ball leaves his foot, there is always someone at the receiving end. i conclude he mus be good, cos more often than not, some other ppl jus kick the ball and the ball flew to dunno where, or got intercepted by the opponent. zidane is old too, judging by the standard. tink he is past his prime. but he is still the captain of France and according to rather reliable sources, he's got the experience n the class, never mind bout the lack of speed compared to the younger 'uns. let the young ones run and pass him the ball. he will jus feed to whoever is at the best position to try for a goal. i tink he is in a league of his own. i tink players like him are a totally seperate class altogether. and according to my sources again, nope, he dun really play dirty, unlike the portugese, but tats subjective. i wont comment cos i noe nuts. but some of the "cries" and "falls" looked abit suspicious to me too. there are the good players and there are the good players who will jus go down in history. like zidane.
i duno any others liao. oh wait! i noe maradona! but well, he is famous for another reason but tats another story. im supporting france now tat brasil is out. sigh. tat was a fantastic match. i didnt feel sleepy at all! i was rooting for both teams and it was a great match. 2 world class teams. but u noe, there can only be one winner. Vhy?! Vhy cant all be winners? but tinking bout it, i tink all are winners. to be able to represent ur country and play at the world cup already puts u up THERE. u r carrying the nation's hopes and dreams on ur shoulders. u have ur countrymen watching and supporting u all the way.

its kinda amazing, events such as tis. everyone are strangers, bonded by a ball, a soccer pitch and 22 plyers.oh ya, and the refs. they better not be kayu. the entire world, mayb universe is watching. when a goal is scored, everyone cheers ard u and suddenly, u jus knew, that no matter if u r strangers or frens, the link btw u all is tat goal scored by ur countrymen/supporting team. i tink everyone starts off the same way in some point of their life, and the cycle jus repeats itself. like a lost sch kid in the 1st day of sch, we all needed to belong. for tis world cup, i belonged to the french crowd. i cheered when they win and i felt wasted when a scoring chance is lost. i was at Cuppage food center the other day, for the Germany vs Argentina match. i decided to affiliate myself with germany and suddenly, me and XinQuan (germany supporter) bonded like best frens for that 2hrs. it was just amazing how such tings can allow 2 frens be best frens, even for a while. it was fantastic, when germany scored, the entire food center cheered. i looked ard me and there were smiling faces all ard. i grinned at the ppl at the next table and they grinned back. in the sea of unfamiliar faces, our hearts were united and it was such a sensational feeling. no wonder ppl like to watch soccer with a big bunch of ppl.

i was at the superband recording for the revival. i belonged to the MiLuBing congregation. i didnt noe anyone else there, besides WL and 2 new "frens", AL (sam's sis) and Ag(their fren). but when they sung finish, everyone ard me cheered. i even had a 5 min conv with the guy i didnt even noe his name! we were like kindred spirits for tat 5 mins.

isnt life amazing? we are constantly having "Moments", whether u r aware or not. "Moments" to me is smt like an event or smt tat made an impact on ur life, small dent or big. it doesnt need to be tings tat happen to u tat u will repeat to ur grandkids for yrs to come, but jus events tat u grow up with, memories that u have.

we are constantly living LIFE, learning and growing every single day. we learn tings everyday, either facts bout the world, tings bout ppl ard u or smt new bout urself. who says when one is coop up at home, he/she is not learning. granted, it may not be the best use of time, but in the silence and comfort of home, we may learn smt we never noe bout urselves.

LIFE is a journey to be embarked, not a plan to be followed.

granted, no one can or shd live life without a plan, but no one shd live life jus to follow a plan. learn to be a bit more spontaneous. we live life only once. consider doing tings as and when we tink of it (of cos, not stupid tings. duh.). love everyone ard u. let them noe u love them. appreciate ur time on earth, becos, seriously, u never noe when it will end. do u wanna live life with regrets? nope, not me! i noe, i shd study hard now so as not to regret later. its kinda hard. im still trying to study when i need, not to procrastinate and flunk.

ask urself, wats the purpose of u being here? on earth i mean. i dont noe mine too, but im still finding. i always say i dun wanna grow old. i wanna stay young forever. but sometimes, jus sometimes, i cant wait to grow old and see wat life has got in store for me. will i be a teacher as i would want to be now? or wat? what job would i have in the future? will i get THAT RED BEETLE i want? or will i like other cars? will i have tat happy family? life can only be understood backwards, but it mus be lived forward. how true. we more or less tend to regret tings, tings we SHD HAVE done, stuff we SHD HAVE said.

the world is evolving every minute, every second. make the most of it. but do not forget to allocate some ME time. i believe everyone needs to have some time to himself. i tink i may have the makings of a recluse. heh. im perfectly fine spending time with myself, in my own company. i tink, seriously, i make quite good company. really lor. i tink im more than jus jokes and lameness but hey, wat better to get some light-hearted conv? i tink im capable of more intelligent conv. jus try me. and maybe gimme some space to make some mistakes and learn and grow. heh.

but again, Intelligence is quite subjective. but tat will be a topic for another day.
now, i hear my stomach growling.
where is wen?! im hungry.

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 1:30 pm.

bloody hell

lib@esplanade now. sigh. blogging halfway. the internet conn had to die on me. thanks. tat really killed my train of tots. im so grateful to u.

anyway, to start a fresh new entry... shant repeat wat i blogged jus now, cos it really killed the spontaneousness. wats the pt, i say? waiting for wen to finish his exam now so we can go for lunch. killing time by going on internet.

entry coming up. watch tis space.

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 1:19 pm.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

MI LU BING IN!!!!!!!!!

oh my god... mi lu bing is in!!!!!!!!

ok, i was there. I WAS THERE!

and i got my 1 sec on tv, national tv, everyone! but dun go lookin ard for me. i tink i sucked on tv.

let me tell u. that less than 1 hr u see on tv, it actually took lke 3hrs+ to film.

wait.
wait.
and wait somemore.
intro the bands.
intro the judges.
wait. X3
1st band came out to play.
judges comment.
wait. X3
the equipment and the floor is cleared for the next band.
wait in the mean time.
wait. X3
its a vicious cycle. and meantime, me and weiliang were standing.
we had to amuse ourselves by playing scissors papers stone, to practise for the vball social league next sem.
we were dying of hunger by the time MiLuBing played.
and we waited some more..

but, all in all, IT WAS GREAT BEING THERE! HAHA!
ITS OK, I LOVE TO WAIT AND STAND.
the atmosphere was, how to describe, if u r a fan, the mood is infectious.
amazing. everyone was screaming.. i wasnt. i swear! but the mood was v energetic.

it was cools.

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 5:25 pm.

Monday, July 03, 2006

superband

at the lib now. jus did my timetable. jus a very quick post here cos wen waiting for me.

I WENT TO WATCH THE SUPERBAND RECORDING YESTERDAY!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!

THANKS TO WEILIANG, I GOT THE TIX!

IT WAS COOLS... BUT THE WAITING AND THE STANDING WAS LONG.

BUT THE ZHONG DIAN IS, I WAS THERE.

HI MUM, I MIGHT BE ON TV!

ok, got to go liao. shall blog bout tat when i have the luxury of time. bleahs..

and hope MiLuBing really win this revival and progress along the comp and win the comp!
yay!!!!!!

MILUBING ROCKS!
heh.
and yes,thanks weiliang. u rocked too... =)

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 4:07 pm.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

guess where am i blogging from NOW?!

heh, im at xinquan's hse now. watching soccer and the next match is at 3 so killing time by blogging..

yay, portugal is IN!. but actually, i shant pretend i noe much bout soccer cos i really dun. so, boys and girls, the only reason im supporting the soccer teams mus be the cute guys. i noe, im pretty superficial and shallow, but i really noe nuts ma.. but on the other hand, to redeem myself, i really like Brasil's style of play. its really different watching them and other teams play. i guess tats how to tell a good team from a fantastic team. they work magic on the field. and the bonus nus be the looks of Kaka. heh. okok, so im a se lang. sue me.

tml MLB is going for the revival and THE IRRITATING CLASSMATE AKA WEILIANG told me he has got the tix for the show. and i dun have. sianz can!!!!! haiz. but i believe he tried to see if there was extra tix for me. i doubted but well, i told u guys liao, sometimes he can be nice. i dun tink he is tat evil to not ask a tix for me... see, WL?! i have so so much faith in u! so better help me ask for tix for the next show! i really hope they will be revived.. hope n pray and cross fingers. they singing Wang Ba Dan (Bastard) by David Tao. so i told WL, jus go as urself can liao.. no need to dress up specially.. heh.. ok, im evil. but WL, u noe imm joking, rite?! heh...

alritey. its almost kick-off already so im outa here.

now: brasil vs france. i like both but hope brasil goes in! bleah

You Are Unique, Just Like Everyone Else. 2:39 am.